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Cos I Can Conquer You Balingkilat
September 25, 2009You wont be so tough anymore. You looked very ominous when I first sighted you. The dark mountain by the right, peaks covered with gloomy black clouds thundering it’s height. A scenario as if transported from the reels of Sauron’s dominion - tropical version.
But tomorrow you shall be my conquest. Your magnificence will be where I shall borrow strength from.
A good timing to forget the city light’s harrowing metaphors and blurs. No internet, no electricity, none of the superficial and shallow pursuits people busy themselves with.
And then as if to quench my beach yearning, Nagsasa Cove… no matter if this typhoon’s a threat.
This will be the ultimate nature commune - to be humbled by the forces only God could make.
Why Believe You When You’re A Liar
Plain, basic, english without the hifallutin flair and drama, Why believe you when you’re such a liar?
Ok, what did you say before? That you’d disappear? You blocked me on Skype, I think even changed your Facebook settings, marked my email address as spam so I’ll have no means to contact you ever again. The first week, you have no idea to what depths I’ve undergone to. I have become someone so different, from being a cheesy idiot to a pathetic zombie almost begging you to forgive me and start anew. You, whom someone I have not even met and looked in the eye before. Yes I was different, I became a different person.. I can still feel that now. I’ll never be who I was a month ago. So you’d say you’ll disappear. And so you should had. And not open up once again my anxieties as you are doing right now. I’m trying my best you know, I am trying my damn best to forget you and yet why still get thru me, thru my pages, my place of silence and you have to comment! You said you’d disappear. You can read my blog all you want, content your heart out with it.. but please give me the peace of mind to not say anything again. I dont understand it, I dont understand how you could be so cruel.
Chris, every word you say to me now, you just make me more broken. You continuously hurt me, you’re like my vicous cycle I need to go out from. You continuously break my soul yet I admit.. you might still be the only person who could repair that. But I dont need your obligatory remarks and pity. Dont say a word. If you want to really go, don’t linger around and just go.
So see, I’m still begging… that if you have nothing more for me, just let me live my life as how I cope up with it. Please. I’ve only began to smile a bit and here you are with your comments. I dont need those.
Please stop breaking me more.