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Blast from the Past
October 25, 2009how do I interpret this? In the language I was surrounded with as I grew up or in the one I best express my thoughts with? Either way, Nothing, no one, had fully comprehended the waves my brain, my thoughts, my feelings, had said.
I feel weird… when I know I shouldnt really be. I am a mess again. Perhaps semi.. all these years that passed by, it hasnt readied me what I would feel to see the person who woke up hope in me. The person who drastically change who I was for the better. After almost three years, I couldnt pretend to say, I wasnt affected with his presence. I became.. afraid.
It became surreal for me. My problem? Once I get succombed in this psych vortex, i know, there is the strong urge for me that I wouldnt get out… And I am afraid for myself. Am i afraid of a possibility that I could get happy? No.. I just know there is no possibilities with me. I am broken. I became more so when he left me. I am just an expert in hiding myself.
I am… an enigma to myself.
