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One Cell in the Sea
December 23, 2009They say, feelings is a decision.. everything that you do is your own will, you feel lonely, sad, angry, happy.. it maybe the factors surrounding you but everything is your decision. But sometimes, it can’t be helped. However you dont want it, it passes you by and you cant do anything but to realize things about yourself and you just feel it.
Like now. I know I am stuck. And I am just one cell in the sea.
Very tired,
Dying, shutdown to a whisper.
In a daydream.
I guess, I’m really like this. I just thought I could escape the reality, that I am never good at keeping people around me. I always make a mess whenever I thought I am outside my circle. Look where they are now.. look where I am now.. inside again, keeping everyone at bay.
Its a stupid world I have, but I just can’t keep up with everyone. I refuse to admit it but its been that way ever since I could remember. It comes back whenever I forget.
Now I am just drifting… I am sad but I cant feel anything.
Previous Comments
Your feelings are your decision… But often heavily influenced by outside factors… Taking control of your own heart should be priority, try not to “keep up” with anyone but yourself. Trying to escape can just bring the problems back, dont run… Instead work at a solution, and when things are overwhelming look to a friend, you would be surprised at how many people are out there to help you even if you cant see them clearly.. 
You do write very well. I look forward to reading about your Pinatubo climb — musings and inspiration.
Have a truly Happy Christmas, and a New Year filled with hope, health and prosperity!!
– Tonet
Posted by Tonet at December 24, 2009, 6:21 pm