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nienna: Sinu aketch?

graphic designer.

corporate slave .

emotera.

writer.

painter.

drawer.

wallflower.

supladita.

maldita.

loner.

sawi.

namumundok (i guess not anymore).

sunog-baga.

bum (pagayaw magtrabaho).

reader.

baliw (may sariling mundo).

drama queen.

antukin.

restaurer (ng restaurant city).

zombie (against plants).

farmer (ng farm town).

malandi.

ukay fashionista.

tomador (sabi nila-haha!).

awayera.

number deficient.

sabongera (ng words sa chat).

illustrator.

blogger.

i thank you.

Pichures!!!

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Mga Panawagan

thesecretglenhol:

hi nienna. been busy. i have some things in my documentos privados folder and i hope i could post them all. i have been busy and hurt and all the them “crazy carnival rides,” if you know what i mean. hehe!

madmikepro:

HA!! I like the preview!! :) When does the last airbender come out in theaters?

Ignoring:

I’ve not spent that much time in Manila but I must say it’s an amazing area. But anyway, I just wanted to stop by because I’m looking for blogs about filipino life and found your site on yahoo. If you have any ideas on things I must do while here in the Philippines then I’d love you to share them with me. Happy Holy Week!

thesecretglenhol:

one cell in the sea. haha. what a fine frenzy. i don’t like the album much but i like almost lover. hehe. how’re you doin’?

jnienna:

yeyey, naghiatus ako.. nde ko rin alam kung baket… nabaling ko sa papel ang pagsulat, nagtampo na kasi yun ballpen ko..haha

jnienna:

hi po sikat ang pinoy.. salamat sa pagdalaw.. kun sakaling mabasa mo pa itong late reply. haha, hmm, bago ko kasi upload, binabawasan ko na yung laki at bigat bukod pa sa automatic resizing na prinoprovide ng site.. syempre may slight diff pero keri lang.. di naman super bagal.

jnienna:

thanks mike! :)

MadMikePro:

Merry Christmas and allways smile k!? :) :)

sikat ang pinoy:

astig din pala ang blog na may picture hindi po ba nakakabigat yan sa loading?

yeyey:

hi nienna! just dropped by and read your bit… miss kita.. :)

Jeremy:

Great Blog Site!! Add my site to your links! Thanx
-jeremy
http://boracay-resorts-reservations.blogspot.com/

yeyey:

thanks for visiting my blog.. i’d love to see your artworks sana… do you have any online? have a great day.. :)

glenhol:

hi!

yeyey:

i love reading your blogs. probably because i can relate to them :P galing mong magsulat, am envious.

xdalisayx:

uy, wag niyo ako i-ma’am. Hehe. Ako nga dapat ang mag-maam sa inyo. Mas matanda kau. Hehe. Ang bastos ko, di kasi ako nagpo-’po’. Anywayz, mabuti at nabuhay kayo. Kung anuman ang pinagdadaanan nyo, yakang-yaka yan..

xdalisayx:

Hello po.
Ayan, may ibang tao na sa message board mo. May kausap ka na. Hehe.

jnienna:

wahehehe. Pichures!! Pichures pa!

jnienna:

I am excited. Yet I really need to work out

jnienna:

crazy bitch.. spinning the psychotic threads again

jnienna:

i’m speaking to myself

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Closing Time

July 28, 2010

Have I done the right thing? Did I make the right decision?

I feel like im in the desert right now, snowing cold.  I’ve etched myself deep onto someone else’s heart it hurt me deep as well. It hurt to see I hurt him everyday. I want to be more but this is only what I can give.

 

I want to love but, wishes, I guess do come true. And so tell me,  how can one give love when you regard yourself as an ice burning cinders away. A stone, I once wished I could be, to no longer feel the hurt I once had… I never knew I would only pass it along.

I’ve forgotton the days… when I’ve been lost. Then He found me.. Yet I had debt to pay. I knew, and hurts to see that you knew as well, I need to bid my farewell.

 

You say you understand… I understand as well, when it sinks in, that you will come to hate me.. so blind with it, and I’ll know I deserve that, more than the love you give.

Feel this, I place my hands on your face, and I close my eyes.. this is my Sahara, I cannot endure to drag you anymore in these sands…

 

Goodbye..

 

 

 

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Letting by gones be by gone

July 27, 2010

I dont know what these even mean.. 

 

++++

 

I closed my eyes after I’ve been drained. Stabbed countlessly, I didnt know deception had a face.

You were so, so near, i can almost touch you. But I had never played a game like that before, it was an abyss when I fell. And so I closed my eyes when reality claimed me.

How long has it been since those times? I am thinking exactly a year now. 

I’ve long closed my eyes, and I’m all drained till now. See, I’ve been a changed person since then. 

 

For you to say something once more, it’s heaven and hell. I thank that you remember me. 

Yet, you are the constant reminder how much fragile a human can be. How human I was before..

before I became this pulsating stone.

 

And that was before.

Today, I should be ok. I should be happy now. Such rainbows and flowers; my rays of sunshine.  I am suppose to be living a dream. Happy on my mountain trails, on my latest beach bumming, and for the one who constantly waits for my safe return. I’ve learned to let go the bittersweetness of it, else I’d be consumed endlessly by hate.

I think, I can now live alongside of this, of the past and memories.

I appreciate you remembered. Glad that you drop by.

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